[Updates] Falling sick into the mth of July...-.-

Another week into July, leaving like another 2-3 wks left till my vacation ends... But before that, last week/ just last weekend was the Charaexpo 2016 and it's the first anime event that I actually attended all days(cos of the concert~) I must say it's really tiring but I had fun. I will rant more in another post; there's a lot to say, esp the irritating parts...

It's amazing tho how I was able to attend both days & the concert when I'm quite sick... A few days ago, caught a sudden flu- it was a very nasty experience and even now; haven't recovered yet-.- Feeling rather weak all over that working is hard(just getting up and walk is tiring...) As such, my schedule planned last wk was screwed up and I doubt this wk will be any better...
Think I will cut short of the LL fanbk thingy and split into 2 parts.

 And now, some art updates:

LL random doodles

NozoUmi Shaded ver; finished adding the dialogue yesterday(after back from concert) Sry if certain parts r illegible^^;

The colour ver with tilt shift:

I think this NozoUmi manga will be the last one for the first book- as mentioned a little above, I'm thinking of splitting this series over 2 books instead. There r still many I wan to work on but currently, with this included, there's abt 36 pages! Plus my vacation is ending soon so gt to wrap up.

**The RinPana part will be inside- still 'trying' to finish the 2nd pg^^;

Doodles of Devil Honoka

Inspired by this card:

Felt more in love with this than her idolised~ That look tho><

Instagram | Twitter

Pretty much got influenced by how many fanarts there r of her(plus my fave artist/sensei drew her so~)

These r all; there isn't a lot cos of the current situation I am in(quite sick that I don't hav the strength/motivation to draw...) I'm hoping it will be alright after 2 weeks or my little trip gonna be bad...

This is Yaiji signing off, ja ne~

Yaiji~

Monologue 2: Is solitude good?

Not sure if it's cos of my shy personality from young, I had a hard time talking to ppl; let alone make friends...

Lone Young life

And influenced by animes since young, I thought if I just walked up and asked nicely, maybe that's how friends r made? But that was just a childish idea... 

Still rmb it was when I was in my primary sch, I always see the boys playing at one side and just want to join in cos it's fun. While they did let me, I could see they didn't really welcome me... Maybe cos I was a girl...? 

Since then, I decided I would just do my own stuff, alone; I would spend my break time doing homework so that I've less work to do at home~ Instead of mingling with my classmates- wasn't close with anyone tbh... 

In a way, I envied my siblings who have friends they can talk to easily and even got invited out(tho the spending is another matter...)

Start of friendship

The situation improves when I was Secondary school as I got to know a girl who just so happened, like me, didn't have a table and chair to sit in the class(there was a lack of 'resources') and she also became my 'partner' in class. She had a group of friends who were from the same pri sch and there were all kind ppl to let me into their mini grp tho that time, I was shy and normally just gt dragged/followed around~ But the difference was that, they cared.

Learning(to be a friend)

It's a habit(due to pri sch) to go off on my own during break time; I would either be doing work or walking around to explore the sch a bit- kinda neglecting my stomach^^; When the break was up to return to classroom, they actually asked me, Where did I go and whether I wan to hang out the next time... It was then, I think I just have found some great friends~ 

In addition, there r times I walked with them to the bus-stop or hang out after school. It was one of best school days I ever had and knew that... Having friends is such an awesome feel! 

But first, due to normally being alone, I wasn't used to working with ppl... Thus, waiting for ppl was an alien concept to me since it wastes my time & no one do wait for me before(except maybe my family) but I learned to when I started to have friends waiting for me!

It was hard at first cos I'm really tempted to move; had to remind myself that it's for my friends... 

After that, there's the 'skill' to moving with friends... Again, being alone means you r walking on your own pace and maybe I'm the type that just want to keep moving that I tend to walk faster... And it brought conflict sometimes esp when one of my friends pointed out... 

That was an awkward incident and kinda hurts me a little cos I know I'm not doing good as a friend but to be pointed out... It's even worse...

The reality...

The way I wrote all those, ppl may laugh cos being a friend shouldn't be so hard or need a guidebook but for me... It was really hard cos I didn't understand the concept of friend till sec sch... Before knowing the nature of friends that...Not all 'friends' are friends or should I say true friends... 

Life isn't a fairytale where friendship lasts forever and never changing... I... Really wan friends like those in animes who would stood by and support when u r at your worst yet as one who just work at my own pace, I can't ask that when I myself couldn't do it... 

I actually had to try hard to be kind and considerable to ppl when it should be natural... I really had no idea what to do to comfort ppl but I wan to... It's a... Conflicting and difficult situation that I, until now, couldn't... Do it...

Maybe I had been alone for too long that I lost the ability to match myself with others... It feels so hard to actually be on pace with others sometimes that I wondered... Where, what, how did it go wrong???

Reason for blogging

Started blogging on this topic cos just recently, my family, my sis' bf and I went to a haunted house at a carnival organised by my sis' sch. 

And I was the first to go in; my bro who supposed to be the first, gt scared and I being the 2nd, gt pushed forth- digressing a bit. 

It was pitch black that really can't see anything but lights placed to guide(the lights were very dim tho...) As I was scared myself as a first, I just kept moving forth with the idea of not to look back cos u never know and I didn't realise my bro wasn't behind me-.-'' And I left my grp while walking alone till they called for me...Want to call back but worried I scream if I do; was trying to not to open my mouth much to reduce the risk^^;

Naturally, I was first to finish- was thankful to see the exit~ When the rest finished, they asked where am I and kinda irritated by me walking off on my own... 

While it was nothing serious, I can't help ponder... Maybe I really am just a selfish person who only cares about herself... And maybe it's cos of me being a lone wolf for too long... I had many instances of nightmares of myself walking off alone and ended up dead or all sort of troubles...

Is solitude good?

I used to think, being able to work independently is a form of strength and that even if no one is going to support me, I'm not going to back down... 

But without anyone for support, it also means insecurity to me and as one who has low self-esteem and confidence, it's even worse...

Walking in front with ppl following behind, is called leading but walking in front without anyone behind or beside you...It's called Lonely... 

Men were never meant to be in solitude yet I believed I could which were just me trying to be strong for myself...

Yaiji~

[Updates]Requests, LLSS anime & countdown & debut

This week had been a little hectic with the long awaited day had arrived!!!- 2/7: Love Live Sunshine Anime Debut!!!><

LLSS Anime Debut

A small story on that day:

When the day, 2/7, came, was really hyped for the anime, making the whole day seemed so long till it reached ard 2000 GMT+8. It's about 1.5h away from the 1st ep broadcast.
My main source of watching Jap Live shows was from Nico Nama & imagine my horror when I realised it's region locked for that streaming-!!!
Spent the remaining 1.5h, desperately searching for a source to watch; tried a lot of official streaming sites given by the websites but they r either region locked for their own countries or that the streaming happens a day ltr but with subs...
Was crying out loud- not even the chinese web I normally watched could help; recently couldn't watch any live... Until LL wikia gave a suggestion- the line live option... I was skeptical cos it's my 1st time using plus it's a jap streaming which could be region-locked but that was my only way and so I put all my bets on this one option...
And yes! IT WORKED!!! Though it's raws, could understand a bit here and there but more importantly, the SONGS!!!-Loving the insert song at the end esp!!! The opening was great as well(and best is that I can buy it from jap when it's out~)

While there were lags here and there, I enjoyed a lot & hav watched like 2-3 times when the subs came out~ And looped the 2 songs for like countless times(love Riko's solo in hand in hand!!!)XDDD Really can't wait for the full songs~ Right now... Suffering the torturous wait for the 2nd ep-.-(at least there's the radio & the nico nama to look forward to- it lessen the tortures^^;)

As for the episode review, I doubt I would make a gd one plus the net ppl/fans r better than me, esp spotting stuffs like how the 2nd yrs all hav matching wristbands on their right wrists!!!- Already fantasising how they r the first 3 members & decided to buy those wristbands & made some promise to be together; blah blah friendship(if only it was that easy in real life...I'm salty...)
I would only say the 1st yrs r the most random & noisy ones, haha~ And Dia has her cute side despite looking stern; trying hard to be the president but failed~ As for the other two 3rd yrs(+Dia), only the later eps can tell y the painful expressions in the OP...
Judging from the next ep's title, it's gng be a fun ride for Riko~

LLSS Anime Countdown

If u hav followed me on twitter/instagram, would know that I had been working on the anime countdown since 9 days away from the 2/7! Each day each char & the char drawn is based on their individual numbers. 

Here's a collage of the 9 works:

 The compilation: PIXIV | Facebook

The FB version has more details written under each description.
**FYI: My FB acc is private; I don't add unless I know the person. Too lazy to make a separate acc for art uploads-.-

And other sites uploaded: Instagram | Twitter | Deviantart

Afterthought on this mini 'project':

I had rant on Insta, Twitter, FB and even DA under the work description; and now this blog cos it served as a gd reminder for my future self.

During the process of doing this, it was only on Mari's art that I started to think that this whole proj was a mistake... I couldn't draw to my satisfaction yet I didn't wan to re-do cos it's a lot of work, esp for traditional works...
I was tempted to give up at ard Hanamaru's turn, partly cos of the amt of likes I gotten so far...
I know Aqours isn't well known yet so I didn't expect too much but when it was low-likes for 2 consecutive times, my motivation took a fall & when Hanamaru's work gotten more likes, I couldn't believe; it's a lie... But it did boost my confidence lvl a bit & continue on which I was a little satisfied with Yoshiko/Yohane work(the expression tho -.-)
However, You's, Dia's(esp) & Kanan's really challenged my optimism; I felt they sux but the likes & even the comments gotten proved me wrong once again!- Plus my family or rather my mom who was being kind, telling the art is fine & there's no need to follow the official; cos this is my style!(that actually touched meT.T) It's like the they r trying to push me to continue & finish it!
I really wan to thank those ppl(mostly from insta) for their likes & the comments(esp)!

Not sure how is it to me, I still feel it's bad for some but hoping I can improve more as I draw them more with the anime debut!- much like how I did with U's; more or less able to draw without ref much:)

Requests @Deviantart

Can finally heave a sigh of relief after done with the last work!^^ My afterthoughts r all in this post on Deviantart~ With the rant I did in this blog too, requests r really not my cup of tea/coffee. Tho I won't deny that it's fun to try different things but just maybe cos they r requests; there r expectations so I feel I can't enjoyed too much from the amt of pressure & stress- Am shy & has low esteem in myself; really defensive & insecure as such...(I will rant more in a separate post...)

LL random doodles

New doodles with my top(?) 2 fave pairings; NozoEli + KotoUmi~ Sry if they seemed OOC^^; 

The NozoUmi short manga- scanned ver... I love to suffer- as usual, shaded & colour versions~ Supposed to end this shade & colour thingy with the last manga but my hands & muse just hav to act up & divert out from the original plan... 

On the other hand, no inspiration for the 'last' manga to tie up Tsubasa Vs Umi & NozoEli mini series...

Oh and had started working on the cover for this fanbk~ Progress so far:

It's only 5 chars but already occupied one A4... Not sure if I can fit the other 9...May need to extend...

RWBY Vol 4 Coming this FALL!!!

Was jumping for joy when the volume 4 was decided to be out this year's fall!!!- Thought there will be like a yr off but no!!! RoosterTeeth, u guys & gals r AWESOME!!! But what's even better, it's the new designs!!!

Loving Blake's!!!(That jacket!!!><) Really tempted to draw them now~

Afterword

That's all for the updates~ Another 5 more days to CharaExpo!!!>< Wallet gonna rip a hole tho(they up the prices so muchT.T And so much conflict of whether to spend much to get the exclusives...) 

But the VAs that I will be meeting just made this week too exciting! And while thinking abt the meet-and-greet with the aqours VAs, seeing as they hav a nico nama on 8/7, it's gng be tough on them to come to Singapore for Charaexpo... And as expected, they r coming on the 2nd day~ 

But talking abt tough, it's also tough for me on the 8/7- with the concert, need to rush back to watch the anime streaming... Not sure if can make it even if the concert do end on time of 2030(which I doubt so with the encore...) Oh well~

[Random] Listening to Aqours' music & wow, the collection is growing great! Just ard 1 yr, they already gt 14 songs!(including the OP and the insert song) Enjoying their songs much~

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off~ Ja ne~

Yaiji~

[Updates]Not leaving DA- RWBY shirt...?あと五日！！！

Before starting proper, abt the deviantart thingy, I would say I didn't read carefully. Even so, will be more... Conscience when I upload stuff since if there r ppl stealing from there then, it just means the security there isn't too... Tight?

Then again, it's an art community- it's kinda like a 'buffet' for art thief... I suppose doodles/photos of works will be available as it is; can be easily downloaded if ppl wan to(but if u r gonna use, repost or do anything to it, it's only polite to let me know even after putting the credits- don't wan to hav a 'heart attack' upon finding out...*Thought back to the fb matter...*)

So, I'm nt leaving DA!- No idea who will(or will there even hav ppl) reading this; it's just a reply/response to the previous post & to set thing right(Did ramble a bit in twitter...^^;)

And now with that settled, back to the usual~ 

It's the 2nd last week of June and time really flies! My summer vacation's ending in ard 1 mth time & it really felt so... Fast! Had been drawing a lot in this break or rather this is like my only time I can draw with ease & often!
Tbh, this break should have been the time to find a temporary job and earn some money but I just wan to rest before school starts(again-.-) And anyway, it's work till death after graduation so y not enjoy while it lasts?
I digress a bit but I never really understand how boring holidays can be for ppl when my friends complained that they hav nothing to keep them occupied & thus get a job to do the job...

Maybe it's my love for art- my daily routine is just: draw, rest, draw, rest, draw before ending the day...Adding a few other activities like gunpla building(still gt 2 backlogs...), playing my DS or just simply going for a ride on my bike~ Such is my life but it's a carefree one:)
However there r times I feel kinda... Dead...? It's just a repetition of drawing, drawing and more drawings to the pt I had no idea how many hav I done until now...
And I can say I kinda push myself a lot- may hav been even more busy than I am in sch...I really hav no love for myself, haha...

Think I had said enough; time for the updates!

Updates

Random LL doodles

Somehow, I managed to finish up the shaded & colour ver of the Nozoeli arc of both Eli & Nozomi sides this week & just yesterday, added the dialogue!(the scans came in early so~)

First the shaded ver:

ELI POV

NOZOMI POV

 And then the colour ver:

^Mentioned before, I won't be uploading the colour ver till the fanbk's done- Right now this partial blur will serve as a sneak preview~ 

Talking abt the fanbk, a great(?) news: compiled the present works & wow, there r currently a total of 27 pages! And there r many more coming!- One more manga to put a closure for this mini series & thinking of doing doodles of NozoEli casual outfits(as seen in Nozomi POV) 

Also, may add a few more scenes of the other pairings(had been focusing too much on my fave trio and the glass garden pair...)

RWBY possible proj

This is just an idea but I like to see ppl responses toward it! 

There's this RWBY work which I finished abt a week ago(you can see HERE) & I'm thinking of opening up pre-order for the artwork to be printed into shirts(judging from the amt of faves...)

I had already make one for myself:

Me wearing it- cos it's taken from a mirror; the artwork is mirror-imaged...

It's nt gonna be cheap; ard $30+ per shirt(haven't asked how much will it be if it's in bulk order...) But anyway, it's just an idea; may/may not carry it out!-Just wan to see the responses before deciding^^;

^Welcomed to comment here or at my DA acc(created a journal post of it; LINK)

Aqours Anime countdown

Started this mini proj abt 4 days ago which was 9 days before the anime debut(2/7)! 

And the progress so far:

9.Ruby | 8.Mari | 7.Hanamaru 

6.Yoshi-Yohane~

And for tmr(haven't uploaded anywhere yet~)

5. You~

Abt this proj, (it was after done with Yohane's art) I was very tempted to abort this project... The more I draw, the more I felt the characters aren't looking like how they should be(they r becoming more manly or just plain OOC...-.-) And to add to it, I suppose the likes gotten were so low that I felt it reflected how I feel abt the art... But I dislike giving up halfway & nt sure what, why, how, the likes gotten for Yohane kinda pumped me up a bit: 

But the one that reignites my motivation was this:

  

^Really surprised by the likes & the comment(in yellow) made it even better(was even honoured to be commented by this sensei- saw his/her art & really wish I can reach that level~)

And so, I continued(the You art) & decided to see to it to its end! Another 5 more days!!! Can't wait for it!!!

*PS: take note of the pattern that will comes as more r out~(Should be easy to spot:)

Request @deviantart

Just this week, (finally) finish one of 2 last requests!!! This particular request really took quite a while with edits here and there- it's also the same one I rambled over 2 posts(now that I think abt it- kinda felt bad now...-.-)

I admit the process really was... But it was an experience I'll never forget; made me realised both how I'm not cut out for requests & that drawing diving gears isn't as hard as I thought it would be~

After talking things out, finally uploaded the work- see HERE

While the requesters prefer that, I prefer this:

^For someone who is bad at backgnd, to be able to kinda get the underwater effect, I think it's considered nt bad? And the bubbles too~ 

The rocks were fun to draw(& shade)- needed to do a bit of research^^;

As for the last request, already done with draft. Hopefully able to finish before June ended...o.o

Afterwords

Pretty much that is all.(The post has gotten long thanks to the ramble at the top...)

Just another 5 more days before the anime debut but before that, gt a war to fight on this coming Wednesday!- Nid to wake up slightly earlier for it... Wish me luck~

This is Yaiji signing off. Until next time, ja ne~

Yaiji~

[Updates]: Small sad news...

Another week over, leaving like 2 weeks before June's over -.- But it also means closer towards the summer animes!!!- esp a particular one on July 2!!!- Another 13 more days!!!(Gng try do something special for them:)

Nothing special; 'working' as per normal on my art 'projects'~ Still gt 2 more requests to work on... Hopefully, finish both by this week- don't wan to drag any longer...

Well then, now the updates:

LL random doodles

Done with both the shaded & colour ver of the NozoEli manga~

As mentioned in my last few post, I won't be uploading the colour ver; only doing that when I'm done compiling the fanbk~

But here's a sneak peak:

Playing with the tilt shift in insta~

^High chance this is how I'm gng show colour ver/ nt at all; for now, pls make do with the shaded ver for the story:)

Oh and gt the idea to link this NozoEli manga to the Tsubasa Vs Umi mini series:) There will be 2 additional ones; one of Eli's POV & the other in Nozomi's POV!- Guess the sudden muse hits me & prove done with both & sent for scanning

First, Eli's POV:

This takes place after Tsubasa Vs Umi_Honoka side(see here: LINK). This shows a bit of Eli's past & her hate for vamp(Honoka's in for a fight...) 

And Nozomi POV:

This follows after the NozoEli manga but not necessarily linked; can be separated read! 

The manga shows how NozoEli met & a little of Nozomi's character(but that can only be seen after the dialogue is added which I did in insta/twitter:) 

Quite satisfied & enjoyed drawing NozoEli's outfits here; a break from drawing their char intro outfit, esp for Eli(her armour while it's nice, it's nt easy to draw^^;) Plus the hand holding cup- took me a while to get it; nt used to drawing such hand posture...)

And nt sure if ppl'll realised but their first conversion is quite similar to that in anime(gt a part of my inspiration from there~)

Also, it's lucky that I finished outlining this work before my marker dies on me><

A bonus:

  

Dk what drove me but just finished the shaded ver of NozoEli_Eli's POV- took a while & may hav overworked my hand a little... 

And just bought the marker set- giving Sakura brand a try again(seems like a lot of artists use this o.o)

Before I forgot, most likely there will be another one or two manga after these 2 to wrap up both mini series- already gt the idea; just nid to draw it out which is the hard part...

Ohara Mari bday update:

Decided to add backgnd to the white area:

Had updated the Deviantart's & uploaded onto Pixiv; LINK

Nid more work on the backgnd; the grass field that is...

Requests

As said earlier, I'm left with another 2 more; one already long started & the other nt yet... Just gt the scanned piece of the request work; will be working on it(wan to get it done asap; already dragged long enough...) And this is & likely to be the only request work I actually needed to scan b'cos the paper is ruined from over editing(gt to stop or risk talking too much...) 

Small sad(?) news

I'm thinking of quitting from Deviantart after seeing this post: link. Never thought DA has such a policy so... I... May still post but in low quality? I'm leaving the high quality ones to Pixiv; it seems Pixiv respects the artists more... And of course, twitter as well; insta is more for photo taking~

Well, it'll be disheartening to leave(had been a Deviant for 7 yrs...) but can't be helped... 

Afterword

That's pretty much all! Hopefully able to finish up most work before June ends so that July will be more free before sch starts>8<(But before that, there's a war to fight on 29/6!) 

Also, thought double SR event is only reserved for Aqours in Jp but how wrong I was when the next one is NozoPana event-.- Lucky(?) for Nozomi fans since SR Nozomi(up to 3 copies) can be obtained through points:) while Pana for tiering~ Just gonna try get 2 Nozomi & 1 Pana... I'm hoping Umi will pair up with either Kotori/Honoka(More fun to tier~)

That is all! This is Yaiji signing off, ja ne~ 

Yaiji~