Updates since around 2 months(from my last post)

 It's been a while and want to pen some thoughts after around 2 months since my last post.

Seemed like the current virus situation is getting better for my country so maybe the norm would return soon but caution is still much needed since it just needs one infected case to destroy this current improvement...

Regarding work, recently, took two days of leaves to rest (since travel is pretty much still dead...) and with more work responsibilities from much ad hoc roles assigned (especially when your colleagues just taking you for granted...), the 2 days rest/break really help. 

And during the rest, my definition of happiness has changed to just being able to find the time to do what I want to do... 

I mean with work piling up, given my colleagues, supervisors and boss expectations, it's just hard to even find any breather from work; since when you thought you are done and can just rest a while, your colleagues just decided to add in new stuff or edit more stuff, leading to more work which they are not the one doing but me so in a way, it's easy for them to say...
And, when they thank you for the work done, only to add more, the thanks given felt sarcastic... 

The worst is when they expect the work to be done fast when the work can't be rushed... It's stressful that you just want to call it quits...

I suppose the lack of understanding from colleagues can really tire you out much and when your explanations are not getting through them, that is when the real horror can start... Sigh...

Maybe it's also cos I already lost interest in the work I am doing and the company I am working for, work is getting unbearable for me each day yet for the money (which the more I used it as a motivation, the more I hate how it is binding me to my job), I stayed... 

But I really dk when I may reach my boiling point of tolerance but hoped I don't and leave before I do... Cos I would not know what I may do when that day comes...

Aside from the depressing adult life of work, still playing arknights and am proud that I managed to clear all rewards from the last CC, barrenland, as well as the recent event, Ursus Childen event. It showed the progress of how I could not complete all stages in Ancient Forge to being able to do it for the other events after~
I would say risk 18 of the perma map of CC#0 gave anxiety but the satisfaction of clearing it was awesome!

Given that a new CC will be coming in mid-nov, need to rush promoting some operators and m3 some of their skills! The current top priorities are e2 Myrtle and Nearl so as to m3 their s1!

In addition, had been working on an art to commemorate my playing since I started in June~ Will likely put it as either my half-anniversary of playing or put it next month(if I do finish early, haha^^;)

^Occasionally, I do sketches of arknights, especially for MostiExu and LappTex (since I don't have them except one-.- Hope they come one day...) And I post those sketches on my art account in twitter, ArtYaiji~

^Not sure if I did mention but I created a new account for art so that I have more freedom(?) to post my work:)

That is all I guess. Penning and venting my thoughts after a long while seems like a good way to destress as well~

Yaiji~  

Two years into my job; time flies~

Yesterday marks my 2nd year into my current job which I never intended if not for the current situation...

I suppose while it's tiring to continue to work when you've already the motivation to... To have a job currently is already considered a blessing. (I guess that can be my motivation...?)

At least my current work isn't too bad; learning and working on stuff that I had initially wanted to do when I took on the job.

That said, over time, I realised what I wanted to learn/work on wasn't what I like doing... Rather after having a 'taste' of it, I realised it's not what I had expected...

When expectations don't match, you get turned off... However, given that I only have 2 years of work experience, it's best to learn as much and brush up myself.

Aside from my work life, I started playing Arknights about 1++ month ago.- Got interested in their stories after seeing the code of brawl event pv, shown in Youtube Advertisement.

Initially, I was skeptical in playing the game since I have no experience in playing tower defense game and nor am I good at strategical game... 

My brother just said to give it a try; if I dislike it, I can always quit... 

I suppose there is no harm trying out the game but would be a pity to just give up the game without even trying it out.

The start was tough; with all the different classes and how the operators should be deployed- Which was similar to me starting fgo and revue starlight relive; where both have classes and it takes a while before you know the class advantages and their roles.

However, as you play more, the classes advantages and disadvantages are no longer the concern but the deployment timing and skill timing; essentially, the gameplay.

And then, there's the farming part which is a pain but much better than fgo(?) since there is autoplay option(lol)

^With regards to playing more, I may have gotten a bit too engrossed into it that when I can't crossed a particular map, thinking of how to cross the map with my current operators may have triggered me thinking about it while I am sleeping^^;

And so, that is all. Updating once in a while to pen my thoughts:)

Yaiji~

PS: to anyone whom likes to add me in arknights, feel free to search my name for it- last I checked, no one used my name(lol)

First post of 2020

Been a long while and felt the need to pen some thoughts with how drastic things had changed since the start of 2020.

First, with the current situation, many things were either put on hold or simply cancelled.- And that included my travel plans in May(which passed last week...)

While it sux a lot, it's the reality that the world is facing and as much as I want to be optimistic, I don't have high hopes that travelling aboard will be back by this year(but I still hope it will...)

Also, the current situation also screwed up my plans to switch job since been able to have a job currently is a blessing... While it's a painful drag to continue working when you've already lost the interest, for the money to survive...

Following that, my country is in a partial lock-down since April and will end in June(hopefully). And, since the start of it, I had only went out once; was planning not to go out but got to get my breakfast(cereal)...

^ Very tempted to go cycling which is allowed but for the safety of not just myself but my family, setting aside such non-essential activities till the current situation gets better...

That said, drawing helped a lot with spending time at home(and even more since my laptop charger spoiled after a few days into the lockdown...).

Talking about drawing, had planned doing birthday fanarts for both love live series and revue starlight. And besides just U's or Aqours or Kukugumi members, had included Nijigasaki members (influenced from All Stars) and relive members (love their revue outfits a lot; want to try drawing them:)

In addition, I had created a separate account for both twitter and instagram in posting my artworks. Wanted to try making an exclusive account for just my artworks and also an account where I can post without any much worries or fear...

^It's part of the reason why my current instagram does not have as much artwork as before- I will be posting some pose-practices soon and may make a post on this new account matter...

That is all. Just wanted to pen down a bit of my thoughts and update with regards to this sudden change of events since the start of the year...

Yaiji