Hello again and this post is my second one of this week which I believed is something rare but nonetheless, this will be a short post. As the title had said, I did an hands-on activity of making sushi! Well, it's been a while since I made food; the last I did was when I was in secondary two which is about 4 years ago? So, this activity was a great experience and boy, did I enjoy it very much though at first, I thought I sucks at it... Well then, here you go, pictures of my 'product':
Before wrapping the sushi with strips of seaweed...
Ta da, all sushi wrapped, ready to be put into the fridge!
With that, today's a day where a certain great manga ended...The manga called, 'Vampire Knight'... This manga has been running for I don't know how long but it certainly was a nice vampire-type of story which I guessed most people would prefer than a certain english vampire story called, Twilight. (I don't get why people hate this story anyway... Because of the movie?-Then I guessed the intentions of the movie really got the opposite responses...) I got introduced in this manga when I saw one of my classmates reading it during the time that I was in secondary one... Before I knew it, I was following it and checking every 24th day of the month for new chapters. After many months of following the manga, it finally comes to an end! I just read the last chapter and am now thrown in a sea of emotions... The ending was a happy yet again maybe not... Don't want to spolit those who have not read but to think that... In the end... Her wish for her lover has not changed... I can't say I agree with her choice but if that's what she wants then... I as a reader, can't find the reason to hate her for that cos' this is why love is so powerful... (I think I had read or watch too many romance stories...) Just want to say this: THANK YOU MATSURI HINO FOR CREATING THIS WONDERFUL MANGA!
With that, I'll end off now and re-sort out my feelings affected by the end of a certain great manga... Till then...
Today marks my last science practical exam! It was nerve-wrecking in the days to come for the exam but once the exam was over, it was like a load off my body! That was another major exam down! All that left were the theory papers which I will be taking at the end of the year which will be the determining, turning point of my life! Just wished that this time, I don't screw out and surpass my siblings for once! Also, hoped that I could get the grades I want to be an engineer! And that's that, I said it; I've decided after some thinking done... I want to be an engineer to shape the future with my very own hands!- It may change but until then... This is my ideal occupation!
Moving on, 'the cross between dream and reality'- this may be confusing to many but it is simply a small problem I am sort of having these past few days... It is like sleeping while dreaming of the real world and what to come after you sleep... Maybe it is surreal to some but I certainly did feel that way... It is like I am doing something that I may do in reality and when I woke up, thinking I did the things I experienced in my dream which in actual fact I did not... Sigh... This is where it gets a little problematic... There are times where I thought I woke up and did all my work but in reality, I was actually just dreaming of it... When I woke up, I got confused over whether I am in my dream or reality... I think I am doing a little too much of 'image training'? Image training... You may get curious about it but it is simply just a form of activity where you focus your imagination much more than usual and somewhat lost yourself in your fantasy world! After all, anything in the fantasy world is possible! Even pigs can fly in there! Ok, back to topic. So, this little problem of dream and reality is lately getting to me as I sometimes found myself drifting off to lala land... I think one day I will think I am walking when I actually fainted while walking...Sigh... All these just come to the conclusion that I am not having enough sleep...The effect of continuous intake of coffee is getting to me now but good news is that my addiction has subsided so one cup of coffee per week and that should do the trick!
That's about all my ramblings now! (Blogging do help one sort out one's emotions; good for the mental health! Though I need to watch what I write here, considering this is on the net...)
Once again, I am back, blogging to voice out some of my thoughts. As the title said, I am talking about my coffee addiction! If I was to ask my past self, my past self would be surprised as to how I even started to drink coffee in the first place! In the past, I prefer tea than coffee, given how coffee is bitter and bad for health... However, after trying it once, I think the drink isn't as bad as I thought it was; it is simply a drink that is a little bitter yet at the same time with some degree of sweetness! Given how this year is one important year that I had to sacrifice my sleep, I started drinking coffee... I had no idea how I in the first place, actually hated it or dared not drink! It became a routine; buying coffee when it was Saturday night to get an all night study time. Slowly, unknown to myself, I got addicted to it. The realisation came a few days ago when I started to feel uncomfortable from not drinking coffee and had the urge to buy one though I am not really thirstly but rather hungry instead... Searched through the net, coffee contain caffeine which is a drug... In a way, you could say I am addicted to the drug instead of the coffee... Right now, I am feeling how a minor case of drug addiction feels like... Sigh... I am currently restraining myself so no coffee for this weekend. I think I need to switch my drink around... Maybe bubble tea?
Also, I realised that though coffee helped to keep one awake, it also caused implications of disrupting one's concentration by a lot... I guessed coffee isn't really a solution... My school Principal mentioned that sacrifices need to be made to gain something, BUT sleep is NOT something that should be sacrificed. I kind of agreed with her... The habit of drinking coffee in the first place was a wrong one to start with...Sigh...
That aside, today I watched MGLNfirst movie. I must say I was amazed that an anime series can actually be compressed into a movie with all the important points all shown. After reliving my childhood anime, I just realised what a cute couple Nanoha and Fate is! Again, if you asked my past self, that idea of Fate and Nanoha as a couple will never cross my mind! I simply saw them as rivals before being best friends which I dreamed to have such a person in my real life... Then came the second series where more characters were introduced, I just focused on my favourite character, Fate and that was before the third series was introduced where I got interested by Subaru, a combat cyborg. Before I knew it, the anime stopped but the series has not! MGLN Vivid! The new character, Einhart was my favourite from then on! Got a little side track...So... After finding out how people see these two characters as a couple, I can't help but re-watched the series and yes...True enough, their intereactions and relationship did seem beyond friendship. In the past, I was disgused by yuri and yaoi because they are wrong but now... Who am I judge when love is limitless; it doesn't has to be girl-boy! In addition, who am I to say, girl-boy as a couple is RIGHT while same sex as a couple is WRONG? It is the same as how do we know that our mathematics law of simple calculations; 2+2=4 is CORRECT way to count something? Because as far as I know, sometimes, 1+1 does not give you a 2 but sometimes a 3 or even a 10! That's why, I accepted this view as it is; as long as the two parties are happy with each other, genders are hardly much of a issue! Sorry for my ramblings! With that said, this show really brought back some of memories! I guessed the remake of this series into movies was a good choice after all with new designs and everything! Can't wait for the third one to be out!
Man, can't wait for the year to end with my exams over and get back to writing my stories! Just reading those wonderful fanfics, they really pumped me up to write but circumstances prevent me...Sigh...
With that, I end off with a great song called sweet arms from the anime, date a live! Enjoy!
Ok, I lied. Let's just say, I sometimes need to pen down my thoughts and here I am, blogging despite the fact that the previous post should be my last post... Sigh... Well then, let's start things proper.
It's been a while though not a month long but still it had been quite some time since I updated. I kind of wanted to sort out my thoughts through blogging... Let's see... Today, my Vice Principal had a talk with my class, given the poor performance we had as a class in our last exams... It was an awkward session where the Vice Principal talked to us about how we should go about to do something about our studies. To say the truth, I think not even me, my class but any sensible person knows that one has to work even harder when he is not performing well. However, it is the thought that counts when a person nags to you take actions. People hate nagging. I for one is no exception but my form teacher told my class that it is because people care, they nag. And, that brought me back to a certain memory when I was in my primary school where one of my classmates complained to me that her mother was naggy and I simply replied that, 'it is because she cares...' I wonder how the younger me was able to deduce into that conclusion but it certainly made me realised that my thinking until now had never changed because... As much as I hope people stop nagging to me, I feared the day the nagging stops since it just meant that they have given up on me and are washing their hands off me.
And, this idea was even more reinforced when I was reading a Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha(MGLN) fanfic called <Whipped>. It is a story that explored the mental health of Fate, considering the abuse she was given by her mother in the past. It was said in the story that since Fate was whipped by her mother many times in the past, she came to find that sort of beating as a form of love (if I did not understood the story wrongly...). Thus, Fate would do things that ended her been spanked despite how sorry she was... And that was the extreme way of people trying to feel loved through physical means but it means the same thing that, sometimes love comes from pain.
We do not know what the other party is thinking. No matter how sweet, how chessy words may be to a person, those words may sometimes not reflect the writer's true feelings... That's why actions such as scolding, beating, nagging are some ways of showing the fact that the person cares, or else the person wouldn't be bothered enough to take actions...
It is an irony that I hate nagging yet at the same time, welcome it to confirm that I still have hope in the person's eyes. In a way, it means that I am not a lost cause; I am very much still useful, have values in me- Sounded as though I am a product but that's how I see myself and that is the reality; if you're useful, you're wanted...If not, you're very much an outcast...A pest in the society... Sigh...
That's about all my ramblings! I'll end off with an AMV on MGLN first movie. The song is stone cold by fictionjunction!- It's a great song! With that, enjoy!
Well, that's about it! Hope you enjoy! Till then, ciao~
