School had been hectic since day 1 and guess that is to be expected from Final Year...?
And maybe cos I was on internship last semester; coming back to school after like...8 months and studying seems kinda foreign to me like switching over from working to studying mode.
I must say the switching over was a hard to adapt from the first few weeks; I struggle to get my momentum back, esp in cutting down my freedom to draw- it felt unnatural, considering how I did not have much work to do over the weekends and was able to draw during my internship but the same cannot be said of studying(with projects, presentation, assignment, tutorials coming at you week by week...)
Right now, drawing is like a luxury and a form of de-stress for me, especially when the work loads can get overwhelming which happened in the first few weeks; there was quiz and presentation at the start plus working on my fyp which I had no idea how to, after looking through the code numerous times...
Something to mention, the one thing I hate and also fear the most in school is presentation... Whenever there is presentation, I can malfunction for the week and only focus on the presentation when I know I have other commitment to do...
And during presentation, should I mess up, my brain starts to blank out and my vision may start twirling...
This is how bad I am with presentation or rather I am just bad with talking, with myself as the center of attention, esp to unknown people...
Negative thoughts will start to invade my mind before I even present and during presentation, if I see disapproving looks, my self-esteem can go way down to negative...
I know you can't run away from presentation in University and that after doing quite an amount of presentations over the years, I should have resolved myself in doing presentations. However, actions always speak louder than words...
There is just this barrier I can't overcome in stopping myself from being nervous in presenting myself in front of an audience... Nervousness normally got me screwing up...
Well, that's me and my weakness which I'm sure is gonna haunt me over the years but hopefully, one day, I can be better and overcome it.
That said, considering my busy school term, I'm putting this blog to hiatus...
And apologies to the last part of the jap post- think I will get it out after my school or something(haha^^;)
Small note: while my blog may be hiatus, I'm still pretty active on twitter and instagram:)
As for my art, I like to apologise again to the September LL babies for the super late work and I blame much on my school work load(priorities, priorities~) All 3 works are already uploaded with the exception of scanned Ruby work yet to be done- getting it out tmr(pls look forward to it~)
After that, I will compile and upload onto pixiv:)
In addition, I started a small crossover between Fate series and Love Live with the LL members divided into servant-master pairings. Think I mentioned a few posts back...?
Currently, all pairings are decided but design wise; left PanaRin and RubyMaru to finalise. I'm still debating whether to add one or two more servant for Dia & Kotori whom don't have a pair or just as a passer-bys...
Lastly, I'm joining Inktober but not everyday(doubt I got the time...) so occasionally, I will doodle some ink works and upload onto twitter & instagram!
That's all from me! Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off~
PS: October is such a tempting month with all the good animes coming up(LLSS season 2!!!) yet I'm stuck, juggling with my school works-.-
Yaiji~
