[Update] 2 months into work life...

Had wanted to blog to vent a bit but was really busy for these few weeks; with work in the weekdays and events in the weekends...

And finally. got a bit of the time to blog a bit.

So, 2 months into working and I think working really does not suit me... B'cos work means being realistic to demands of the audience... It's never gonna be about what you want but what the people want...

You can still add in elements of your individuality inside your work but at the end of the day, the work will be prioritized to people's wants and needs; b'cos that's where money comes in... And that's the purpose of work- to earn money from people by catering to their needs and wants or else who would pay you money for your work?

As someone who prefer to do my own stuff, it's hard to adhere to this rule... Worst of all, at one point, I just lost my purpose in doing the work and feel that my work is meaningless, and question...'Just what am I doing in life...?'

I had no answer to that qns and I think I never will; unless I'm finally doing work that I want to do... ^But that's not gonna happen; as long as the rule of prioritizing audience/customers/people needs and wants is there...

For the past few weeks, I had been feeling lost, frustrated and depressed... First, the program I'm working on, has some incompatibility with another program, thus giving problems in integrating both programs... Tried my best to resolve it but alas, no fruit was bear... It became a big problem when this integration must be done and in a few weeks time...

Upon hearing this dreadful news, I panicked and felt stressed out to the point that I broke down and kinda cried everyday...

But crying isn't gonna solve the problem... After some discussions with my supervisor, I see some hope in resolving the problem since there are new methods to try...

While I am feeling a little hopeful and maybe excited to try these new methods, there is a tint of fear that what if my hope is misplaced... and since there isn't much time, I can't afford not to resolve the problem by the next week...

Sigh... For better or worse, I can only hope and gamble that this new method is the solution or at least a leeway from this situation...

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And that was me being pathetic and complaining venting out^^;

A little update on my art work:

Finally, all works of [ChikaRiko 30 days challenge] are uploaded to deviantart(after a month or so); I have consolidated the works into a folder for easy viewing:)

A big thank you for all the support given!

Currently, I'm working on YohaRiko 30 days challenge. Unlike ChikaRiko's, it's just going to be me drawing when I've the time but it will still be 30 different themes of YohaRiko^^

Progress as of now is at Day 13. Most likely doing another one today so that coming October, the other half; day 15 onwards can be contributed to inktober:)

I'm hoping I can get this challenge done by the end of the year(so that I can work on other stuff~)

Next, in celebration of Riko's birthday:

^Had uploaded to deviantart 

This is a continuum to Chika's and here's a combination of both:

My current twitter profile pic~

Did something simple for my faves so as to focus on other aspects(like the colouring, etc.) And, used colouring pencils to colour than copic- easier to shade since you can control the gradient~

Lastly, I'm thinking of working on an illustration(A3 size...?) of Shoujo Kageki Revue Starlight(and maybe print on shirt or something)... The series actually started last year with the stage play(which I dk if I should buy the blu ray to watch...) The anime started this year's summer and ended this week- it was nice char intro to people whom didn't watched the stage play but are interested in this series!

^I quite like the fight scenes! And, my faves(before watching the anime) are Karen and Hikari. After watching, think I like them all; or rather I don't have any particular characters that I am into cos they all have personalities that are unique and interesting(lol)

It's kinda the same for the voice actors- they are all interesting and funny(esp Maho san and Aiba san during their midnight revue!) 

These are the art updates for now- with work at hand, art is a luxury for me(tho I do doodle while I'm bored at work, lol)

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off!

Yaiji~

      

[Update] September

Time sure passed fast and it's September- 4 months before the end of the year(didn't notice until my family pointed out...)

It had been a month since I started working. It was tough(still is, btw) at the start(the transition from University to working life...) but slowly getting used to it.

^I'm just glad that I'm seeing some progress; though I'm still far from completing my task...
One step at a time to avoid the unnecessary stress from building up- I mean there is the uneasiness of not meeting my task requirements by the deadline but I have decided I would do what I can and try my best to deliver... 

Plus there is no point pondering about the possibilities of failure when they only give you nothing but worry and fear which will just hinder you...

Well, that was just me trying to be positive despite fearing for the worst but really, there is no point thinking too much(whether it's the future or the past) but do what I can in the present.

And this post was just me trying to convince myself to believe in myself and be positive^^; At this rate, if I'm adapting well, I may just stay on till my project is over- I mean time sure passes fast & a few years will be over in a blink of an eye; that is if I don't get deemed 'unfit' to meet the expectations...Sigh...

Okay, let's move on(before it turned into another depressing one...)

Art updates:

Started another 30-days-challenge for YohaRiko last week. Unlike ChikaRiko, will be drawing when I have the time so it won't be consistent but I will my best to do at least one per week... Currently, the progress is at day 5.
The artworks will be uploaded to insta-story and twitter- They may not be the final works
but they won't differ much from the final ones; likely just small changes/edits made^^;

Next, I just uploaded the works I did so far from March to August to Pixiv. And the works are aside from the ones I did for ChikaRiko 30 days challenge so it's quite a small compilation^^;(plus was quite busy from March to May due to University...)

Afterwords

That will be all then.

I will try get my post of my jap trip out soon(tho I kept procrastinating...)

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off

Yaiji~

PS: didn't plan to post this post & closed it... But apparently, blogger saved this post and I just continued writing and the initial thought was history(lol) 

[Special Update] Jap trip Days 1 & 2: Numazu Stamp Collection Part 1~

Spent around a week at Japan from 12/7 to 19/7/18 for my grad trip; with most of the days spent on Numazu~

Day 1: Numazu~

Mentioned briefly in my other posts, the main goal to complete at Numazu was the stamp collection. It was a lot of work but well, it was an experience~

Train ticket to Numazu~

Searched a little and realised there are other ways to get there but slower like taking the local train. However, the scenery is nice so if one is not rushing for time, it would be a nice train trip back to Tokyo from Numazu:) There're also bus services; from Shibuya to Numazu...

So, it was a straight trip down to Numazu once the plane landed at the airport where my family and I had to took the train down to the Shinagawa station to buy the tickets to Numazu.
Maybe cos it was in the evening when we reached, there was quite a long queue at the ticketing counter. Nonetheless, we finally bought it after a few minutes of wait~

The bullet train took about 45 minutes to reach Mishima where there was a need to change to local train to reach Numazu which is just a stop away from Mishima.

I'm Back!!!^^

It was near the night when we finally reached; around 6-7. After the checking in to Daiwa Roynet Hotel(which is just beside the Plaza Verde where the SIF thanksgiving 2018 was held!), first stop was to Gamers cos my family wanted to get the new stamp books while I used the ones from Love Live Sunshine Walker 1 and 2~

First Years Standees at Gamers Numazu~

In collaboration with SIF thanksgiving 2018 in Numazu, there was a stamp rally too but in terms of years; so there were only 3 locations to go to get the stamps of the members in each year.

First Years: Gamers Numazu
Second Years: Izu Mito Sea Paradise
Third Years: Sun Sun Sunshine Cafe

And think due to the distance of 2nd yrs from the others, the rally lasted about 2 weeks~ And the prize was an A4 file:

Oh and there's also postcard given at each of the stamp locations if the conditions are met;

First Years: Spend at least 500 yen at Gamers
Second Years: Buy the entry ticket to Izu Mito Sea Paradise
Third Years: Dine at Sun Sun Sunshine Cafe- think need to get at least a main course and a drink?

About the postcards, had quite a bad experience with it. First, for gamers, it was easy to meet the conditions.
However, apparently you need to show that you r taking part in this stamp collection, by showing the stamp card before they will give you the postcard... B'cos of this 'rule', I actually missed getting quite a number of the postcards-.-
The same applied to the Izu Mito Sea Paradise- I had to speak to the counter lady to get it... There were a bit of awkward exchanges but at least I got them~
I would say the best was Sun Sun Sunshine cafe which gave the postcards without asking~
^It was quite unlike last year; in Ikebukuro where the shop staff would just give the postcards after you meet the conditions without asking...

To add on, (also unlike last year) the stamp cards were not out in the open for people to take or at least not at Gamers... You had to ask the staff for it-.- Again, awkward exchanges but in the end, got the point across and got the card so~

All in all, everything was collected so it was fine:)

After Gamers, we stopped by Sun Sun Sunshine cafe to get the stamps. It was quite late so we didn't eat there. Plus there was quite a queue...

Third Years Standee at Sun Sun Sunshine Cafe

But I did buy the exclusive rubber straps:

*Cries* Riko Chan...

Sadly, no Riko but at least there's Chika(& Yoshiko...) Tbh, I don't mind collecting all of them at this rate(haha)

I also bought Aqours water which has the design of the Awashima Escape Game and of course I chose the 2nd years' design~

Beside that, I also got this:

Back in s1 ep 11 and 13(I think...?)

And I didn't know there was a random sticker inside...

Quite obvious who is it...

Hanamaru~

Haven't tried yet but think it will be good for a summer dessert~

After the short break at the cafe, we went to the next stamp location that wasn't closed & had dinner:

YouRiko-Mos Burger

Loved the melon soda~

Saw a few LLivers there and I got the pin badge too(cos Riko~)

First Riko stamp and pin badge gotten~

About the pin badge, it was either sold in the shop or put outside the shop as gachapon, and I prefer the latter; it's more fun and interesting but if you do not have change, then it's a problem...

I only remembered that Mos Burger and Sun Sun Sunshine cafe were the few that used the gachapon way.

That was for Day 1- short day since most time was spent on plane and travelling(lol) That said, I actually found this on first day:

Salted Onion- The taste is quite unique...

If you did watched Marugoto Rikako ep 24, this flavour of jagariko was advertised guessed by Rikyako and I just have to try it after my fave tried and loves it... 

The taste was quite unique and as Rikyako had said, think it would work well with rice(than eating by itself, lol)

Day 2: Numazu Port, Awashima & Agetsuchi

Numazu Port

Start of a full day at Numazu and the plan was to collect the stamps in Numazu Port and Agetsuchi, and those that were slight out of the way like the Ishibashi plaza. Stamps at Awashima side was supposed to be collected, together with Uchiura area, on another day.

However, as one of the stamp locations from Awashima closes in the weekends, a trip down there on day 2 was a must... There was a lot of walking(and thus how I got my blisters...)

And, I could have shifted the trip to Numazu Port to the weekends instead. But since my family had booked the LLSS taxi for day 3(to go to the further areas like Fujimi Hotel) which was to picked us up at the sannoura tourist information center, that was a no-no...

As planned, took a bus to Numazu port where there were quite a number of Itasha or anime cars, namely Yoshiko/Yohane cars since it was her birthday~

There was also a queue outside Numazu burger- think Yoshiko/Yohane fans celebrating her birthday by having a meal there. Saw a group photo taken from Numazu burger twitter 

I did stop by to take a rest after walking around to get the stamps:

After getting JA Nansun stamp and bought the badge(as seen below~)
And I chose the chibi file this time; chose 2nd yrs last time~ May go for the plastic model photo ver next(if I do go again, lol)

I was debating whether to get since just getting all Riko badges was gonna be quite an investment but since I came all the way and she's my second fave, I can't leave out her(and it's not complete without her...)

Following that, went to View-O next:

This was where You and Mari had the talk in S1 ep 11. And if I knew there was gonna be light-up at night, would have planned my route differently...

Lastly, LLSS kitchen car was stationed near the port so bought Yoshiko birthday drink set where a special bromide was given. Think I didn't order or the person didn't hear the orders probably and thought we ordered two Yoshiko birthday sets where it was supposed to be one birthday drink set and one Riko drink... 

Anyway, Yoshiko birthday drink was simply just cola with whipped cream... And I actually don't drink cola-.- But can't waste food- one of my principles in life...

The coasters gotten:

No Riko(again) but there's Chika~ And I forgotten to take pic of the drinks(again)

If there's anything I don't mind getting, it's the coasters; like it would of course be great to get your faves but somehow, when it comes to coasters, I just accept whoever comes... It's like I'm not driven to hope for a trade when it comes to coasters except if it's repeats- That's just one thing I can't accept...

No drinks pic but at least there're the banners which I only took of Kanan, Riko and Chika...

And the kitchen car was the last stop in Numazu Port before heading to a bus stop, a few minutes walk away, to the next two stamps which were slightly further down from Numazu Port.

Due to the summer heat, it was quite tiring(and disgusting) to walk yet the occasional breeze was nice too~

Spent a while trying to find the stamps- actually followed a group of LLivers to get to one of the stamp areas(lol) 

Quite like this design, esp with Shitake on top~
And the shop cafe serves quite a few mikan desserts- may try if chances arise~

Next, we went further down to Awashima~

Banners placed and naturally took ChikaRiko with the addition of Yoshiko(cos her birthday plus her ranking in my list is slowly climbing up to Chika's position...)

Unlike last year, the stamps were no longer at the ticketing counter but outside... And, there is this shop where LLivers can customize their own ceramics(such as plates, bowls, cups, etc.) by putting stickers available.

I suppose it's a nice merchandise/souvenir for LLSS fans:)

Due to time constraint, didn't go to Awashima Marine Park...(Though would love to go due to the collaboration...Another time... If I do have the chance...)

With the far-areas done, we went to Agetsuchi as the last stop. Orandakan(aka. You's house) was the first stop~ 

Hopefully, I can eat here one day... FYI: this is a cafe and as it's You's Home in the anime, there is quite a display of You merch inside~

Tbh, I'm quite surprised by the distance from Numazu station to here; it seemed far on the google maps but actually it was just a few minutes walk... However, due to the heat, it was kinda tiring...

Moving on, the long stretch of Agetsuchi street was full of stamp areas and there were a few more of Riko & Chika stamps:

Was told by the staff that this car plate, "03-" indicated this car is registered in which prefecture but alas I forgot which...-.-(but after knowing, I started knowing at car plates and trying to find these particular numbers. I did find a few:) 

Riko stamp ink was a faint pink(likely to differentiate from Ruby's pink...) and I think the stamps that were introduced recently have darker shade. This is especially good for characters like Riko and Hanamaru since the pink and yellow were quite faint previously.

Think Hanamaru stamp ink was switched from yellow to gold and it was much darker and better!

Beside stamp collection, there was a campaign going on in conjunction with Yoshiko/Yohane birthday. A number of shops in the Agetsuchi participated and depending on the shops, if the conditions were met, a special sticker of Yoshiko/Yohane was given.

Example: For tsuji photo studio, a expenditure of 500 yen would satisfy the condition and I bought the water bag coffee set:

The coffee set and the sticker * gotten

*There were 3 types of stickers but the art was the same for all; the only difference was the wording... The 3 were: 1)Datenshi 2)Yohane yo!! 3)ギランッ(Giran- the sound made when Yohane does her fallen angel post)  

^I got the Datenshi ver- Was hoping for "Yohane yo!!" ver but oh well~

Outside of Tsuji Photo Studio

Apparently, this board gets update, depending on the occasion; like it was Chika bday 'recently' so the board changed to Chika art! Do check it out if you ever pass by~

Grandma- Staff entrance to the kitchen

I had wanted to try the Yoshiko-image cake(which was also the one Aikyan did for her experience Aqours Club report) or the Yoshiko birthday set but due to time constraint, just got the stamp and moved on(while thinking I could always come back again but couldn't in the end...)

Before I moved on from Agetsuchi area, here were some pics taken(of my fave;)

This district and Nakamise shopping district were full of these banners(it was an awesome sight for me, a LLiver~) 

Love the poster and the mascot(a fox) which has its own stamp & I got it as well~
Naturally, I got the badge as seen above:)
FYI: The yoshiko poster is the art design of the sticker that would be given when you spent in selected shops in agetsuchi~ 

The day was supposed to end with collecting the stamps at Nakamise shopping district and the nearby areas that were missed due to them closed upon arrival to Numazu in Day 1.

However, since there was 'time', my family and I just decided to go to Ishibashi Plaza for dinner since it closes at ard 8 and we finished the stamp hunting collection at 7...

^You can see how much of a rush this trip was than a relaxing one...
But I was part to be blamed for not voicing out so...Plus I could be giving the wrong signal to my family; letting them think I want to spend every possible minute to walk than rest...Sigh... A lot of miscommunication happened over the trip...

In the end, by the time we reached, it was almost closing so can't get dinner but managed to buy some stuff tho^^;

They were... Ex but I can't resist(these chibis><)

In the end, we bought convenience food for dinner(lol)

Omelette rice is love~

And I didn't know how hungry I was till I started eating... After all, we did kind of skipped lunch...

That was my adventurous day 2~

Will be doing day 3, Numazu Stamp Collection Part 2(in the area of Uchiura and the areas beyond which will be done by taxi- gonna share a bit of my experience in taking the LLSS taxi and the awkward exchanges with the driver due to my pathetic Japanese speaking skill...) in the next post so as to avoid making this post any longer... 

I will also include my trip to NESOPASA, a highway shopping mall where there is a LLSS shuttle bus service to bring fans there at a cost of 2000 yen per round trip.

The SIF thanksgiving 2018 at numazu event will be done on another post instead; due to the sheer amount of photos and contents^^;

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off~

Yaiji~ (EDIT: Here's the next part after so long^^; Part 2)

PS: By some miracle, I passed my N3 exams(\yay/)

[Updates] Overwhelmed...

2 weeks into my job and I felt the stress and pressure of not performing well there...

Maybe it's due to the string of 'failures' I'm kinda of facing while running the program I just managed to set up and run... 'Failures' as in I don't see any the results I feel I should expect to have... And there's also the thing that I do not know what to expect... Like I'm doing something while wearing a blindfold... It's scary that at one point, I felt like quitting but it's only 2 weeks...

After consulting with my family, I received different types of advice like "if it is too stressful for you, why bother staying and make life hard for yourself" or "this stress I speak of is actually just stress I'm giving myself", etc.
As such, I'm going to give myself until this year and see how is it.

In addition, my stress also comes from the environment...
At first, I didn't pay much attention to it but as I work, the fact that most people or rather my colleagues in my department are mostly PhD makes me feel inferior... Plus the job is a research-based; it's like I'm at a disadvantage and everyone seems to know what they are doing without much help... I mean I have my supervisor that I can approach to consult but I'm not even sure if I should bother him when he seems busy...

There's another factor; which is lunch time...
As a new hire, I would join my department whenever they go for lunch so that I don't get left out and also to get to know the places I can have lunch, near the work place- And I did; I know of some places(and slight cheap food) that I can have lunch.
However, they tend to go to the usual places(which is normal and understandable). I'm quite an adventurous person so I like to explore.
And then, there's the eating speed... I do eat fast and I didn't mind the speed that my colleagues were eating at. What I didn't like was that, right after eating, they just go back straight to the office... It's like lunch time was suppose to be break time(of 1 hr) from office and I'm back to office, staring at the com after 30 min of break... Ugh...
I would think they would like to eat and then maybe stay at the food court until the break was going to end before heading back...

^You must be wondering if I have so much complaints on eating with my colleagues, why did I even eat with them??- Beside the fact that I'm a new hire, I tend to go with the flow for fear of being an outcast... This personality or habit of mine tend to end up with me suffering, telling myself to just go with the majority while knowing I may not like it at all...
It is during this time that I either back down from voicing out or just try 'convincing' myself that it will be fun since it's something new...

^That is part of why I rather be a lone wolf than in a group; while alone, no one decides for you and you're not pressured to choose, and every choice you made is your responsibility only... Best is that you're not obligated to follow anything...
Yet, being alone can be vexing since you've no one to turn to for help or advice...

Lately, just feel plain irritation whenever ppl tell me to do this and that, especially to eat- I actually question why are there 3 meals in a day...
I know meals are important but when I don't feel like eating and people telling me to eat just irritates me so much... Sigh...

Seriously, this is getting depressing to blog... Life now feels meaningless that I wondered how did my past me continue moving in life...(Maybe cos I have a goal to graduate... Sigh...)

A small update of my art:

I have started posting the scanned works onto deviantart and will be posting one per day so as to avoid spamming. And I chose 15 or rather 16/8 cos the first work, day 1, was done 2 months ago on that very day:)

As for Instagram, I had uploaded days 1 to 29 with day 30 coming up later to end off the uploads and some afterwords~

Think I mentioned before that I was thinking of doing a YohaRiko theme book; like I did with ChikaRiko- was thinking of doing that for Inktober but feel like starting soon since I got quite a few ideas!

^Nothing is confirmed since there are work commitment to worry about...

And, I will try finish my Jap post this week, given the holidays~

Until next post, this is Yaiji signing off!

Yaiji~

PS: after reading some posts about <First Job Experience>, it seemed that it's normal to feel anxiety and overwhelmed by it, and that some of the stuff I listed here were what ppl experienced before... Felt a little better, knowing I'm not alone in this matter...

[Updates] An week into work life...

It's been (more than) a week since I started work and it felt like I'm doing a fyp all over again...

It wasn't surprising since it's a research based job but the thought of returning to that hell life kinda turned me off a little...
However, as the topic I am working on is a field I want to enter, there is some merit in doing this job.

In addition, my colleagues in my department are kinda of friendly(?) so I supposed it's not too bad...

But maybe the transition from school life to work life is quite a big jump(for me) that it is gonna take a while to get used to... Somehow, the thought of going back to work after the weekends sux... And this reduced freedom is hard to adapt to:/

Ok, think I'm whining too much and it's only a week; gng be staying for at least 2 years so got to adapt to this reality or these 2 years will be a hard journey to go...

'View' outside; taken from my workplace(hate the circles...)

Moving on, art updates:

Uploaded [ChikaRiko 30-days challenge] works onto pixiv. Will be uploading the works onto deviantart & insta, starting from 15/8;)

Next, I'm thinking of doing a YohaRiko 30-days challenge but problem is if I can stay committed...(Maybe I will do that for this yr's Inktober...? Actually, already thought of a theme for day 1 while thinking of this idea...)

Lastly, Honoka and Chika Bday artworks are uploaded on both insta and deviantart; Pixiv wise, will be uploading as a compilation with other works from March to August:)

That is all then; likely to blog about my jap trip soon(considering the amt of holidays in the following weeks to come...)

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off~

Yaiji~

PS: Finally it came(this Friday) :

Wasn't able to get in time for her birthday but still thankful to be able to get much earlier than the expected date~

And, I'm currently wearing the shirt(>^<)