End of 5-days vacation

Background: I took a vacation (5-days leave) to recharge and sort of reward myself after a project ended in my job. And, today is the last day of my vacation and I decided to pen down some thoughts.

First, I planned the vacation to start on the same day as Genshin version 3.0 and I think it's a good thing since this version or the new place, Sumeru is really packed with a lot of stuff! (I am currently working on the Aranana quests...)

And, another objective of my vacation was to do some house-cleaning and maybe work on some art or programming(which turned out to be wishful thinking...). While I did some house-cleaning, it was just a bit since there were much to clear... But more importantly, I realised I'm taking much longer time to do stuff... It is like I lost my drive to do anything and it took more of my head than my heart to push myself to do it... It sometimes(or maybe most of the time) ended up not done or half-done. After that, I will beat myself up for not doing the things that I planned to do for the day... Sigh...

As I thought over it (while writing this post), I feel maybe I am too hard on myself and that I should give myself some leeway since just getting up and living my life is considered an accomplishment... Of course, more can be done but the fact that I am not giving up, I suppose it is already a good thing? Not sure if this is a sign of depression but lately, there are no drives in me to do things (maybe except playing games...) When I stare at my 'hobbies', I wonder how did I feel when I did them before...

As it is, I think I am trying my best to take baby steps in life where I may stop, I may trip and take a while to stand up but as long as I don't give up, I am not losing and I tell myself not to lose cos life is precious.

That said, I did enjoy myself in this vacation where I went to Genshin Teleport event in my country on the first day of launch, 24 August 2022!

Photo taken of the teleport waypoint with Dori standee~

^Initially, I did not see the waypoint and saw the booth in the mall until I saw it, outside of the mall (lol). The following is some photos taken.

Version 3.0 art and the teleport waypoint at the back~

Tighnari~

COLLEI!!!-Love her a lot since the manga and
her interactions in the story(esp her admiration for amber) is really precious; MUST Protect!

And, if you posted a video of the event on Tik Tok (I actually created an account for this), you get a postcard(of version 3.0 art) and a random postcard of either Dori, Tighnari or Collei.

 

^I did not get Collei but Tighnari is fine~ And, love the postcard!

Aside from going to this event, I got to eat Okonomiyaki with my sister! I had been wanting to eat it but not sure if there are any restaurant in my country that sells it... And, it was great! (tho the stuff after the food was questionable...)

Lastly, I did some packing of my stuff and well, it was half-done as mentioned since I really have a junk of stuff^^; It will take time and maybe quite a big amount of time but as long as I still do it, it will be done eventually.

That is all the eventful things I did in this 5-days vacation; with the remaining on playing Genshin (lol). It's not a lot but at least I rested much without worrying work! It sux to know it is back to work tomorrow-.- I suppose time pass fast when you are having fun. Let's hope not too much stuff to handle tomorrow(maybe I should get strong coffee tomorrow...)

Until next time!

Yaiji~

Life updates (happy national day~)

 Decided to update a bit on my life (got the mood from today been National Day~)

The last life update was an annoying and sad one, and this time is no better (sadly) but not as bad...

First, the colleague that made my work life difficult in the last update left the company. It was sudden that I was at loss when it was announced.

At one side, I felt betrayed and been played cos it was like the colleague screwed my work life and then decided to leave.

While on another side, I had a bit of relief since I did not have to deal with the colleague...

But more than anything, the worst of a colleague leaving was the handover; cos either your workload increased from no replacement or/and that you are playing "Pass the message game".

Since then (after the colleague left), it had been slightly more than one month. Considering how things had been when the colleague was around, my work life is slightly less taxing. Even so, I had already lost my interest in the work or rather the company that I am in; the interest of the company is no longer aligned with what I want to do...

Currently, I am trying to find a new job. So far, I had two tests and passed one where the company decided to move the recruitment decision to September... Sigh...

The other applications are still in review which are likely off (shag-.-) Today, I just applied a few more but it's quite tiring (mentally) to do this...

It may be bad but I am thinking of just leaving the company by the end of this year since it is really damaging my mental health (not sure how long I can withstand it...) Not sure if my family can accept it but I feel like giving up... It's torturous to keep going to work when you hate it; it's like doing something you hate for 8 hours and on a 5 times a week basis...

That's about the updates I have which are pessimistic but hopefully... Just hopefully... I can hear some good news soon... Sigh... (Life sux...)

Yaiji~