[Update] 2 months into work life...

Had wanted to blog to vent a bit but was really busy for these few weeks; with work in the weekdays and events in the weekends...

And finally. got a bit of the time to blog a bit.

So, 2 months into working and I think working really does not suit me... B'cos work means being realistic to demands of the audience... It's never gonna be about what you want but what the people want...

You can still add in elements of your individuality inside your work but at the end of the day, the work will be prioritized to people's wants and needs; b'cos that's where money comes in... And that's the purpose of work- to earn money from people by catering to their needs and wants or else who would pay you money for your work?

As someone who prefer to do my own stuff, it's hard to adhere to this rule... Worst of all, at one point, I just lost my purpose in doing the work and feel that my work is meaningless, and question...'Just what am I doing in life...?'

I had no answer to that qns and I think I never will; unless I'm finally doing work that I want to do... ^But that's not gonna happen; as long as the rule of prioritizing audience/customers/people needs and wants is there...

For the past few weeks, I had been feeling lost, frustrated and depressed... First, the program I'm working on, has some incompatibility with another program, thus giving problems in integrating both programs... Tried my best to resolve it but alas, no fruit was bear... It became a big problem when this integration must be done and in a few weeks time...

Upon hearing this dreadful news, I panicked and felt stressed out to the point that I broke down and kinda cried everyday...

But crying isn't gonna solve the problem... After some discussions with my supervisor, I see some hope in resolving the problem since there are new methods to try...

While I am feeling a little hopeful and maybe excited to try these new methods, there is a tint of fear that what if my hope is misplaced... and since there isn't much time, I can't afford not to resolve the problem by the next week...

Sigh... For better or worse, I can only hope and gamble that this new method is the solution or at least a leeway from this situation...

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And that was me being pathetic and complaining venting out^^;

A little update on my art work:

Finally, all works of [ChikaRiko 30 days challenge] are uploaded to deviantart(after a month or so); I have consolidated the works into a folder for easy viewing:)

A big thank you for all the support given!

Currently, I'm working on YohaRiko 30 days challenge. Unlike ChikaRiko's, it's just going to be me drawing when I've the time but it will still be 30 different themes of YohaRiko^^

Progress as of now is at Day 13. Most likely doing another one today so that coming October, the other half; day 15 onwards can be contributed to inktober:)

I'm hoping I can get this challenge done by the end of the year(so that I can work on other stuff~)

Next, in celebration of Riko's birthday:

^Had uploaded to deviantart 

This is a continuum to Chika's and here's a combination of both:

My current twitter profile pic~

Did something simple for my faves so as to focus on other aspects(like the colouring, etc.) And, used colouring pencils to colour than copic- easier to shade since you can control the gradient~

Lastly, I'm thinking of working on an illustration(A3 size...?) of Shoujo Kageki Revue Starlight(and maybe print on shirt or something)... The series actually started last year with the stage play(which I dk if I should buy the blu ray to watch...) The anime started this year's summer and ended this week- it was nice char intro to people whom didn't watched the stage play but are interested in this series!

^I quite like the fight scenes! And, my faves(before watching the anime) are Karen and Hikari. After watching, think I like them all; or rather I don't have any particular characters that I am into cos they all have personalities that are unique and interesting(lol)

It's kinda the same for the voice actors- they are all interesting and funny(esp Maho san and Aiba san during their midnight revue!) 

These are the art updates for now- with work at hand, art is a luxury for me(tho I do doodle while I'm bored at work, lol)

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off!

Yaiji~

      

[Update] September

Time sure passed fast and it's September- 4 months before the end of the year(didn't notice until my family pointed out...)

It had been a month since I started working. It was tough(still is, btw) at the start(the transition from University to working life...) but slowly getting used to it.

^I'm just glad that I'm seeing some progress; though I'm still far from completing my task...
One step at a time to avoid the unnecessary stress from building up- I mean there is the uneasiness of not meeting my task requirements by the deadline but I have decided I would do what I can and try my best to deliver... 

Plus there is no point pondering about the possibilities of failure when they only give you nothing but worry and fear which will just hinder you...

Well, that was just me trying to be positive despite fearing for the worst but really, there is no point thinking too much(whether it's the future or the past) but do what I can in the present.

And this post was just me trying to convince myself to believe in myself and be positive^^; At this rate, if I'm adapting well, I may just stay on till my project is over- I mean time sure passes fast & a few years will be over in a blink of an eye; that is if I don't get deemed 'unfit' to meet the expectations...Sigh...

Okay, let's move on(before it turned into another depressing one...)

Art updates:

Started another 30-days-challenge for YohaRiko last week. Unlike ChikaRiko, will be drawing when I have the time so it won't be consistent but I will my best to do at least one per week... Currently, the progress is at day 5.
The artworks will be uploaded to insta-story and twitter- They may not be the final works
but they won't differ much from the final ones; likely just small changes/edits made^^;

Next, I just uploaded the works I did so far from March to August to Pixiv. And the works are aside from the ones I did for ChikaRiko 30 days challenge so it's quite a small compilation^^;(plus was quite busy from March to May due to University...)

Afterwords

That will be all then.

I will try get my post of my jap trip out soon(tho I kept procrastinating...)

Until next time, this is Yaiji signing off

Yaiji~

PS: didn't plan to post this post & closed it... But apparently, blogger saved this post and I just continued writing and the initial thought was history(lol)