First, my GP screwed up, partly from my choice of essay and the fact that I did not understand the comprehension topics... Just hope I would choose the right qn during the exam... Next, my Physics improved the most! It was literally around 3 grades jump I think. The best progress made out of the other subjects! However, the teacher did confess that the paper was easier so... Sigh... On to the next one; my chemistry- No improvement or fall in grade; I maintained my grade but I believed I had under-perform and even my teacher thinks that way. He believes I could get a A in my exam and I really hate to disappoint him like how I disappoint my primary school teacher for having so much faith in me yet I got such terrible result... I always fear myself screwing up, thus has no confident in myself... Low esteem is what I have for myself...Sigh... Moving on, my mathematics... My biggest disappointment but not that I don't expect it to be... I knew my strength and yes, my result had shown the truth so in a way, I trying my best to improve on the area I'm weak at... Lastly, my economics- the last subject papers I received. The grade sucks and with the same reasons as my maths as to why I did badly... I wouldn't say I am very depressed like in my SA2 since I certainly did improve but the truth is still there; there's still much work to be done... Sigh... At least, I no longer feel guilty from not doing my best for this subject!
I'm tempting to tell my teacher the reason I did not perform well is b'cos I'm burning out of fuel... What should I do from now? I wonder if I can ask my teacher such a personal question since I bet I get shot down by my parents if I told them... Don't get me wrong, my parents are great listeners and gave good advices but there are some matters that they don't see the real problem and do not give the advices I am looking for... I got a little depressed from their insensitiveness over what I am going through right now... I had gave up watching anime, reading manga and now you want to give up reading fanfics? I'm going to lose my personal life at this rate... Not saying that I should not sacrifice but can't I have some personal time than just studying? Sigh... Okay, I'll stop now and that's about all my ramblings. Going to upload a character design I did while studying and some great videos I found to share!
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| Wolf Boy- have not thought of the name yet... |
Video 1: Vividred Operation MAD
Music: Spread Wings by Misato Aki
Music: Gimmick Game by Nana Mizuki
That's about it. Seems like today or rather this week is the start of Fall animes... Sigh... Got to resist watching... This is REALLY going to be my last post before my last paper ends! See you in a month time! Ja ne! Till then~
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